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a slight confusion of terms.
December 14, 2006
nostalgia: a wisftul desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; the sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for his college days.
memory: something remembered: pleasant childhood memories
it is not nostalgia that i feel. it was simply a memory brought to life: a mock proposal that led to a mock engagement. it wasn't real — all of it. (well, it was because it happened. but it wasn't because it was all a charade. )
i cannot explain it in a way that you could or would understand. after all, how could a girl accept a proposal without being serious about it? if you've lived my life, you can believe it. in my early 20's and totally innocent of the inner workings of love and relationships, what did i know? all i knew was that he was in love with me (or so it seemed) and i liked the "me" he saw in his (smitten) eyes.
so no, nostalgia isn't the word for it, my love. it was but a memory and a question unanswered.
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You are right on target there. No feelings involved. It’s just we go through life with so many questions in our heads it wouldn’t hurt to know the answers to a few of them. However, my life doesn’t depend on said answer. It would have been nice, but not knowing won’t kill me. I tried. Unfortunately, the other party either still has some issues or is too guilty to even accept my invite (that might lead to an exchange, that might ultimately lead to an answer). Oh, well. Life goes on. We’ll live, you and I. Hehehe. Here’s to happy endings (no matter how we got here). Cheers, my soul sister! =)
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I can very well relate to this especially the memory and a question unaswered part. It is very difficult to be wondering why all of a sudden a feeling so high dies down without an indication that it’s coming or that it could ever come. It is but fair to let go of something or someone where you know why you had to let go. Am I making sense here? Hope so. But one thing is for sure, there is no feelings whatsoever related to the unanswered question and this remains just a question. How big or small the answer / reason is we really deserve to know. Why? Of course we owe it to ourselves to find out where we went wrong so we could not do things as such again (whatever it was/whatever they were). It’s difficult to be left hanging for how many years now. Mine? 12 years already….. Forgiven? yes. Forgotten? never. Will always be a memory to me….
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