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a slight confusion of terms.
December 14, 2006
nostalgia: a wisftul desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; the sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for his college days.
memory: something remembered: pleasant childhood memories
it is not nostalgia that i feel. it was simply a memory brought to life: a mock proposal that led to a mock engagement. it wasn't real — all of it. (well, it was because it happened. but it wasn't because it was all a charade. )
i cannot explain it in a way that you could or would understand. after all, how could a girl accept a proposal without being serious about it? if you've lived my life, you can believe it. in my early 20's and totally innocent of the inner workings of love and relationships, what did i know? all i knew was that he was in love with me (or so it seemed) and i liked the "me" he saw in his (smitten) eyes.
so no, nostalgia isn't the word for it, my love. it was but a memory and a question unanswered.


